Tim Barrus Blog
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SWIMMING TO THE OTHER SIDE: I THINK SHE KNOWS
Arriving here, I must meet the dead. The boys I knew at that time had all lost their lives in Vietnam. The ones who survived as maimed and crippled had lost their lives as well. Many simply blew their brains out. When they fully realized what had become of them,… -
Loving Boys At-Risk: Just Before the Cure
I am acutely aware of the fact that no one in a million years would dare to publish this. That does not mean I do not need to write it. I needed to write it. Yet I can see where it fits tightly into JUST BEFORE THE CURE which is… -
All Those Years & We Never Knew Him
i had suspected he had been seeing other women for some time but i had no evidence of it it was just a feeling turns out i was right it was awkward and confusing we did not know where we fit in anymore maybe he loved her and not us… -
He Cannot Swim
I knew right away that this kid was going to push every button he could push. And then, he did. He’s draining but I have this magic weapon I can and do use which is called I CAN TURN AWAY AND STOP GIVING HIM ATTENTION WHEN HE BEGINS ANOTHER DESTRUCTION… -
Tim Barrus: New York Times
There are times when I do not write about the Smash Street Boys. It is not always appropriate. There are other takes on life. There is life with kids. A huge part of who I am and what I do. There is life in Art. There is inner life. The…
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It Was Just Shopping 4 Groceries
They needed food. They always need food. You could put five truckloads of food into one of their mouths and it would still need food. It was only going to the store for groceries. That is all it was. Walmart groceries. They sell food there. They have a parking lot.… -
We Need Assisted Suicide
We need assisted suicide. So you don’t fuck it up, and awaken to find yourself strapped down to a hospital bed having barely survived a coma you’ve been in the past three years. It happens every day. Don’t be stupid and think it doesn’t because it does. Killing yourself is… -
Boys As Whores
I was one of them. And I know what the fuck I am talking about. You see sex. I see poverty. I know poverty. If you want this to end, if you can even begin to imagine the cyclical nature of it, if you think young boys selling their holes… -
MYHIVTEAM
Fucking Antiretrovirals. Most are not worth the bother to take them. The constant interface with the ”helper” medical community will test your resolve to live. Unless you like being examined and turned inside out every other day. Social missions. Tenofovir Disoproxil Fumarate is now a Big Girl problem.… -
Life Is Just a Film Clip
adrift in the fetish of excited voices something blinds us stammering stopped & screaming remorse stuck in our throats we have lost all faith in love & have replaced it with venom