Tim Barrus Blog

  1. Except For This

    except for this, i am always hanging on to stones/ i should have known better than to take a dancer home/ at least i called it a home/ someone had to/ i do have rules/ rule#1/ never ever ever ever take a dancer home unless you are completely mad/ a…

  2. I opened My Eyes

    I opened my eyes. I was alone in Los Angeles. It had to be the drugs. The last thing I could recall was that we were all nodding out into the dope zone which is where we lived mainly. As I slid through that trembling of consciousness into unconsciousness, I

  3. Or Why The Fuck Are You Here

    exactly how does one make any sense of a universe-of-existence that both embraces change and runs away from it/ you either dive head first into the vast unknown, the uncontrollable, death with its chains for every mind/ the secrets you do not yet understand how to translate/ what do you

  4. A Shifting of the Clouds

    the woods behind the house extends a sustained but curious sense of authority as if their push against the sky was preordained which is not true/ but rather/ we are all creatures of evolution/ we were not always this/ but arrived walking out of oceans (heroically) long since disappeared/ more

  5. POETRY: THE SECRETS OF THE GAUDY NIGHT

    infinite beggarly in laying siege to the being gone you must not touch/ you must not touch/ touching is forbidden but plowing your face into some guys’ butt is an accommodation/ you, with the black eyes/ pugnacity and false teaching me to sing again/ i hated them and everything they

  6. Tim Barrus: Rape in the War in Central America

    Jandro was raped while his family was forced to watch as the gang – Mara Salvatrucha – that had invaded his village, attacked families at random who lived in the hills of Guatemala. The nearest city to where Jandro lived, El Estor, is fifty miles away. Entire communities in the…

  7. New Guidelines: Pediatric AIDS

    That doctors continued using old (far more toxic) HIV meds with children and adolescents is malpractice. Especially when newer drugs were available. As a result of recent research indicating an apparent association between the use of dolutegravir (Tivicay, also in the Triumeq, Juluca and Dovato combination pills) during conception and…

  8. Crawling Through the Walls

    you were a criminal/ everyone who loved you knew it/ your crimes of pausing in the field was a masquerade of the exquisitely privileged when all you really had was guesswork/ i loved you anyway/ crawling through my own holes of oblivion/ it was most definitely  a problem/ a correspondence…

  9. Video: Good Night Sleep Tight Don’t Let The Bed Bugs Bite

    but narrower, the sanctum/ deep wells had never been your thing that was where the monsters lived/ in the dark dark no i said dark how dark was it fucking dark and i do not mean the lack of light the light was screaming fuck/ they are always watching your…

  10. The Sleeping of Oblivion

    you are not unlike any other of the eternally salvaged materials/ a fluid moment in the snow/ the headlights beckoning/ perhaps there will be food tonight/ your belly growls with the teeth of it, and you hope he won’t want to fuck you/ the wreckage is adrift upon the hills…