Your Clandestine Appearances
Video: Tim Barrus
let’s be clear/ the only reason you are allowed anywhere near us has to do with money and revenge/ the cash you leave behind belonged to you/ the revenge is mine/ the kid you abused has seen you walking through/ but you will not ever, ever see him/ i don’t give a fuck how hard you look/ flipping through the poetry when poetry is only poetry/
you will not find him there or anywhere/
your surreptitiousness is a concealment of mandatory imperative/ as is your remorse over what you did/ your eyes darting down the alleyway/ and while your victim might be older now, he will never forget and then he will remember and then he will forget again, it is a survivor’s cyclic dance through hell/
and you leave me to clean up your mess/
your regret that you were such a monstrosity does not include me, i am not a part of your obliteration/ and that is fine, how much can one evil bitch such as yourself be remorseful of it all, all, all/ this is not atonement you display or let it slip from memory because i know what sorrow is, this is a lament, and you should be sorry for what you did, he’s still just a kid/
you should pay for him because what you did has damaged him so thoroughly, and every night of every day, he asks himself about what happened and why is he so fucked up/ he doesn’t know but I do/ you have consigned him to oblivion/ and I will film you from the back with the privilege of impunity/ now, get the fuck in your car and go home/