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  1. Tim Barrus: Rape in a Hospital

    I was asked to testify before a senate committee dealing with HIV health issues and doctors. I took a walk. I do not trust homo sapiens sapiens one little bit. I’m autistic. There is nothing you can do to me that would bend me toward whatever it is you want.


  2. Against Medical Advice

    My kidneys were badly bruised. I was in a motorcycle accident. At the hospital, they started to talk about “cascade.” I was a failure to doctors. Do these authority figures have any concept of dignity whatsoever. No, they do not. This piece puts religion into the mix. If religion is


  3. Because It Has Drawn Blood

    because it has drawn blood i let you play because it has drawn blood you pushed the catheter in because it has drawn blood for a moment that core because it has drawn blood fed on rockweed seas because it has drawn blood and silences all memories of the dead


  4. Ports In Storms

    Fresh off the truck, I did not want to know how Dane stole the Harley-Davidson Low Rider. Since HIV, Dane has had one killer disease after another. He has an infusion port built into his forearm. An implanted venous access port is a device used to give treatments and take…


  5. Tim Barrus On Being Touched: New York Times

    Long before latin became a language, the politics of rape did not mean the translation we think we understand when someone says rape or writes it. Raped meant kidnapped because the Sabines were raped and kidnapped. There was no word for rape in the same way that today we still


  6. On Being Here

    i have never wanted to be here because i am above it all all all all daddy tried beating it the fuck out of me and i was literally at-risk of being murdered. he bashed my head through walls and came after me with broken liquor bottles but i could…


  7. Assisted Suicide Should Be a Federal Holiday Like Christmas

    assisted suicide could go a long way toward ending medical abuse the abuse we endure letting them inside us after they abuse us they have to kill us you know it’s what they want you can smell it like the water from the lake drips from the towels hung on…


  8. Port of Call

    Public Health has failed us. People tell me all the time: TIM, IT’S NOT LIKE THAT ANYMORE. Supposedly, we are living in a medical Renaissance. What a wonderful time to be alive. Until the day it’s not. Public Health refuses to give him the drugs he needs to stay alive.…


  9. Tim Barrus: New York Times

    AIDS did not go away. There was no one to help. Or to listen.  Caregivers. This was not going to be a vacation. This was not going to be just pop a little pill. Many people can pop that pill and they are fine. For some, the piggyback diseases are…


  10. Stigma at Public Health

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  11. gonorrhea of the ass

    When he arrived, he smelled badly. Like garbage on a hot summer day of dogs and death. When he first arrived, it took him a few days to remove his GoodWill coat. It was all he had. The coat smelled badly, too. The other boys eyed him warily. “Are they…


  12. Tim Barrus: NY Times: HIV and Pain

    Photo by Smurf Tim Barrus: The New York Times http://www.nytimes.com/2019/02/17/opinion/girls-pain-sexual-abuse.html?comments#permid=30675672 The male-dominated medical establishment has failed us all. Men reject the charge of complete and utter failure. Example: Women are almost never mentioned and never portrayed in any of the uninspired rhetoric campaigns focused on HIV treatment. The stick figures


  13. I’m Washing My Hair That Night

    If there was a way to skateboard in a flood, we would find it. Business as usual. Intervention Is. Sometimes impossible. I have learned the hard way that you cannot impose interventions on adolescent boys twenty-four hours a day. It’s not my fault. I didn’t raise them. I am merely


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