On Being Abandoned

I have never met a kid doing sex work who was not sexually abused, or abandoned in some way, and, likely, both.


It was bone fucking cold. Michigan in the winter. I begged my parents for at least a sweater. That was when they sat me down, I had no idea what was coming. None. “We can’t afford to feed and clothe you anymore.”


That was it. Not too complicated.


I found employment at a downtown hotel. Men wanted me.


I have worked every day of my life since that moment.


In the beginning, I was really scared. Now, that I am old, I am tired of being scared. I survived. That is all. They don’t give out medals for it.


I will not look at this video again. The long shot of the abandoned kid at the car wash with his parents pulling away is more than I choose to deal with.


Survival is not enough. As humans, we need to know how we are alive. Why are you here.


I am just now finding out.

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