they sexualize themselves

i didn’t do it/ it’s just how things work, especially a place like San Francisco’s Tenderloin what’s going on, baby, is called drugs

they sexualize themselves, and if that bothers you, please, look the other way

way way way off into the distance where your white people privilege is not in

question

what the fuck are you looking at

for a hundred bucks U can worship my feet but no touching i actually abhor

being touched by anyone i just play a good game the truth is that i am a complete idiot who has no idea what he is doing it’s pretty much moment to moment

i will rest my feet on your face while you jack off the do-gooders will cringe what is cringe cringe is when they throw phones at walls that is when people cringe/

i cringe.

queen, we all cringe.

that’s the thing about life underground. u pop up here and there u look around, okay, cringing, and they get out their bullhorns if you want their shit like food, then you gotta pray their way it’s quid pro quo

fallibility will dismiss all doubt all doubt if you say it enough times

it’s about the pose. Whoever you are today is which one you want to be. Who can say they can do that

by the teeth of their rectum’s skinny skin skin//

what R U looking at, motherfucker they sexualize themselves because unlike the normals they have seen inside themselves, and they can be easily exhausted

they know who i am and i know who they are and what makes them tick because this is who i was way back then and i remember the killing loneliness of it and i remember teachers and men in cars and getting paid meant clothes it was the only way to get clothes or steal them and run

i knew where men parked

time plays time in time for everything to happen in a single molecule set to explode into you and me and everything else in what we call the universe

our universe and you know what these kids get right — these boys-at risk — out of all the things they get fucked up with entanglements whore entanglements and whore drama and what they get right on day one in the life is that it’s all bigger than you are it’s way, way, way bigger than us, and that has often caused me 2 keep fighting back, just what is it i have lose it’s bigger that you can imagine and you can’t imagine black children swimming in your city pool it is not a theory or an opinion it all comes home it all comes home

and yes U never knew me

what of it/

they sexualize themselves/ i did not do it, they are who they are, they had to learn to be tough because in the world there are no second chances hiding it from the dogooders is dangerous they survived as other kids of crisis survived and i defy any adult i have ever met who can claim that because the people who could have claimed that position on that hierarchal pyramid R dead/

in the shelters they always want a picture id you work a way around it all it all it all

it’s almost time///